How was my skin today?
Not great. A few blemishes, worse than normal, could have been the crisps, could be tiredness.
How was my picking/attitude to my skin?
Very good after my latest counselling session. A huge lightbulb moment. I discussed my improved picking but we talked about my obsession of looking in the mirror and the negative talk.
The conclusion was whilst I’m a nice person to others and would save things like, your skin looks fine, the blemish doesn’t show or no one cares, don’t worry about it. When it comes to me I’m horrible to myself. I tell myself how bad my skin is. How terrible it looks. How people might think.
I’ve basically been bullying myself. Telling myself I’m not good enough. It’s really upsetting to realise that but a huge breakthrough and time to change. I need to talk to myself as if I’m talking to a friend. The first step is to stop looking in the mirror and stop obsessing. Just look 1 hour before I got out to check for any blemishes. Other than that there is no need to look at night time, no need to look 1st thing in the morning.
I managed it last night and it was great. I could probably count the number of times in the past 20 years on both hands that I’ve not looked at my skin just before going to bed. If I can keep doing that it will be a revelation and a massive step forward for me.
Was my diet good?
Yes, no crisps today.
What were the highlights of the day?
What was I greatful for today?
Having my sister to talk to things about. She too is like me so I’m hoping we can help each other.
What is my current Mantra?